Followers

Conscience.

Roll over again,

I want this to be of hope.

I want to be part of this growing human conscience.

I want, not to write of tear smudged ink.


Because there is a revolution coming…

As we reach out to that “many of us”

As we learn to hold hands again. 


Jan 2020

Here chimes the bell!

Be still, she calls,

Stop in the resonance.

The echoes of decades upon decades.

Time to fall in love again.


Winter 2019

 



I am not quite sure what to write as a forward to this poem. It is somewhat confused or confusing. It was inspired by a tree I know. That I have known all my life. A tree that I have known long enough to see it change from the one in my child’s eye. I have seen it resting gently in a green meadow, standing destitute in a field of brown furos and hemmed in by stalks of maize. I have climbed and seen it climbed by successive generations of children.

It is a marker in time. It is representative of a changing world and a world, I fear is gathering dust. A world where children played in trees and cared about falling limbs. About a tree that was a home, now replaced by bricks and mortar. And I guess a reminder that we as humans are custodians of this natural world.




Mother



I think of an old oak,

Bows laid low, like a gentleman's cane.

Tired, a once struck limb falls.

And gives up its wisdom

And nutrients to the Earth and roots,

To feed again, the parent tree.


Part two


We walked as boys into those green green woods,

To build things out of nature, dens and dams and leafy beds.


As young men we went there,

With our clever axes to build homes  

And staves and boundary posts.


Now I am older with boys my own.

And I must remember.


Part three 


Have you cried?


Have you cried for your mother.

She is calling you.

From behind the door.

Yes, from behind the door.

-yes, that door,

The one you do not open.


That door, all the children know.

The door you’re alone to walk through.

       —heart of loneliness –


Part four


She is your mother.

So long, she has held you in her arms,

You have forgot them.

You forgot while you lay sleeping in her arms.

You forgot as you grew in her green green beauty.

You forgot as you fourt your brothers.


And now you are so clever.

With all your clever boxes, 

car box, house box, 

your nice neat, nice separate boxes.

Good for building mazes_confounded boxes!


-Now you worry about boxes.

Stop, STOP, LEAVE THAT BELL ALONE

Remember

Your mother is calling you.

As she drops her limbs.


—x-x—


In this quiet place.

You know what you must do.

Come home, be still,

Help your mother in this grief.

Your mother has grown old. And she needs your care.


21st oct 2019


This is a video I made in 2012.  Watching it now, for the first time in years and years, it still holds much of the power it held for me at the time.

It is a film I made when I left Zendo to go on a ‘walk about’ or ‘tuo dong’ (cant spell that). A kind of pilgrimage without destination, months spent following intriguing paths through the undergrowth. It reminds me of that Robert frost poem ( I’ll add that below). It was certainly a forking of the path in my life, a few months after i left on my journey the teacher the teaching and the sanga disbanded. This topic is the one I’ve alluded to many times in this blog, no doubt more will come!

It was the first time in over 10 years i had been -on my own. With out my Sanga or teacher, reflecting now it was the start of a journey i am very much still on.







The Road Not Taken 

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.